Last night at gymnastics practice the song Let It Go from Frozen came on and this girl started rolling around on the floor doing stupid choreography and when she was lying face down and this guy jumped on top of her and started dry humping her ass and everyone laughed and I had to go sit down for a minute I was so irritated with everything
That awful awful triggered feeling where it feels like your guts were just ripped out and in their place is all the shame, guilt, fear, and self-disappointment you’ve ever felt in your entire life.
That’s how I feel when I get triggered anyways.
I can’t do this. I hate being female. I hate going about my life knowing that almost everyone around me thinks that I’m inferior, weak, unintelligent, that nothing I do will matter, that I am a victim of how they think I should live my life, that I am not an autonomous being but rather a puzzle piece that they can use to design their ideal life. I hate not being taken seriously, ever. No matter if I stand up tall and work harder than anyone else and have all the credentials to prove that I am capable, more capable than most of them. No matter if I conform and make myself beautiful in order to manipulate them, or rebel against societal norms and become hostile. Either way they will never see me as a human being. If I stand up for myself they will ridicule me to my face and if I let the patriarchy walk all over my they will make sick jokes about me to their “bros”. I hate walking around remembering that the society that I live in views me the same way as the men who thought it was ok to force their way into my vagina simply because they wanted to be in there. I hate remembering those events and I hate having to deal with the self-destructive aftermath that resulted from me realizing that I am nothing more than an insect in their eyes, and now even less than an insect in my own. I hate myself and I hate my gender and I hate the world that I live in. I wish they had let me die of starvation when I was 14, so I wouldn’t have to go through the next 8 years of intense self-hatred and becoming even more of a victim to the perils of being female. I fucking hate it. I can’t talk about feminism, I can’t defend myself, because the entire world is so disgusting to me that I don’t want it to become a better place. I want it to end.
just because your idea of a good time is curling up with a book and hers is doing tequila shots does not make you a better person than her
it makes her a better person
It doesn’t make anyone a better person for fuckssake you completely missed the point of this post the point